Journal: Something I've learned in the past year

quick sketch after i realised negativity began to invade

well, in the past year, it's too apparent to state that a lot of things happened but it did.

i had to say tho, that last year was so far a really tough year in my life. i started working 2 jobs - day and night, finally have a car, my sisters got married, mum passed, etc. everything went abruptly. i could barely breath. but when there's good, there's bad. and when there's bad, there's good!

i didn't go through everything alone. i was accompanied by great friends and family. i have small circle of friends but they are worth every moment. family members increased then decreased then increased but they're there when you need them. 

life is only punishing when you let yourself be in the dark. u cant find light by believing you'll be in dark forever. it'll get better. just keep believing. let acceptance be brief and depression is felt at its pinnacle, then let it go. get hugs. play with kids. smile. laugh. your past doesnt determine you, but it is what you are NOW. learn something new. get goals. move your feet and dance randomly. love. explore. just do it!

of course, everything is easier said than done. well, it is!

we'll reach certain levels in our life. never think your issues are special. everyone is going through something tough. everyday may not be a good day, but yesterday or today or tomorrow may be good. if not, just keep believing! if it doesnt work, go and cheer someone up. smile at someone. listen to someone. give them hope. make them laugh. make someone happy as your mission, then happiness is a guaranteed award.

these may be some cliché phrases and sentences you can find in books and shared posts in Facebook, but these are truly some of the little things i've learned. i feel that i could write a book if i list them all!

I will be 20 this year, insyaAllah..

i will not let my negative thoughts deteriorate my limits, expectations and hope. then i'll make grand entrance towards my twenties. 

yes, i sound determined. i havent sleep yet and the coffee, black tea, green tea, 1M'sia malt drink and mango shake tasted delicious for today's liquid consumption. yes, i can be nonsense and that's not something i've learned in the past year. i was born in it, and molded by it. yes, pineapplamelo. ciao!

-MR